I just took a quiz at http://www.beliefnet.com/story/76/story_7665_1.html

Haha look catholism the way i was raised is all the way at the bottom. My grandma wanted me to go to church during easter but she never said what kind. Do you think she'd be mad if a i went to a unitarian universalist church, after all it does encompass all faiths...

1. Neo-Pagan (100%)
2. New Age (96%)
3. Unitarian Universalism (96%)
4. Mahayana Buddhism (93%)
5. Liberal Quakers (91%)
6. Jainism (81%)
7. Hinduism (80%)
8. Reform Judaism (78%)
9. Theravada Buddhism (77%)
10. Sikhism (75%)
11. New Thought (72%)
12. Mainline to Liberal Christian Protestants (71%)
13. Scientology (67%)
14. Taoism (67%)
15. Bah�'� Faith (62%)
16. Orthodox Quaker (57%)
17. Orthodox Judaism (52%)
18. Christian Science (Church of Christ, Scientist) (51%)
19. Secular Humanism (51%)
20. Islam (44%)
21. Seventh Day Adventist (30%)
22. Mainline to Conservative Christian/Protestant (27%)
23. Nontheist (27%)
24. Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints (Mormons) (26%)
25. Jehovah's Witness (17%)
26. Eastern Orthodox (16%)
27. Roman Catholic (16%)

FUCKING SPRING BREAK BITCHES!!!!


I thought the world would love to know that for the 1st time in 2 months i have no homework!!!

Going vegan/vegitarian? what do you all think? it seems to be stuck in my mind but now i just need to learn how to cook. any comments are welcomed even the critizing ones.

I can’t deal with this shit, I’m just so pissy. All night nothing but cranky and it doesn’t help the neighbors are still throwing a fucking party with their music blaring. I had coffee for dinner but all its doing is keeping me up I only had to wait like 5 minutes for it through the drive through. And then I had a sub from Quiznos and I think its chemical laden meat messed with my hormones cause I’m just impossible to deal with myself right now. And there’s no one to talk to and nothing to do. When I think about it, its true I have friends I could do stuff with but I’m so introverted that I rarely call them up. Besides all they wanna do is go to the bar, and that’s not cool cause when I’m pissy. Peer pressure/ stress whatever the reason. So I was in class all day and normally I wouldn’t mind it at all because the professor is really cool and tells you all these life lessons like its harder to judge yourself then to judge others. But the thing that bugs me is I Haven’t had a day off from work or school in one month, and guaranteed I took off this week but I still had class. I just want a whole day to sit here and not think. I think the big problems tonight was me trying to force myself to do homework. Although I more so cried,,, I can’t do it, I can’t do it, you know why??? Because I won’t have another fucking day off for 3 weeks. That means no days off what so ever for 7 weeks. That’s just not healthy, and I would love to skip a full day of classes, to give me, ME time. Its not because I’m lazy either but give me a break yo. So tonight I was upset and I figured why not watch a movie, so I watched Pirates of the Caribbean and it made me ever so happy, but then it made me more awake cause I love it so much all the sword fighting and piratey-ness. Did I say it's 3 am with the music blaring two apartments down, why has no one called the fucking cops for real. But I was so excited by Pirates of the Caribbean that I wanted to watch another movie, but nor me or my roommates had any ones that matched the action packed ness of Pirates… I can’t wait till the sequel comes out in June is it? Oh and by the way I am so fucking starving. Then I watched 8-mile which was ever so boring because it had no sword fights or romance. And yet I am still so whiny, criticizing myself again like I shouldn’t. I wonder why we fear letting people see us cry, is it because what society dictates or is it just cause it’s a habit. It becomes more and more apparent to me everyday that I can no longer hide from the truth, the problem however is me not being able to let that go to open up. Yes I want instantaneous results, that’s a habit too, but with everything being so busy I notice all the bad things more. I really did ask for balance in my life, however I don’t see how you call working and going to school nonstop balance. Like staying up till god knows when on a Saturday night is not balance if I need to be sitting in class tomorrow for 8 hours… god it makes my ass hurt so so freaking bad, not cool. I’m gonna be so dead tomorrow night I won’t be able to study for my stupid microbiology test Monday. Of course it fucking figures that with my weekend class this upcoming week I have 3 tests and 2 presentations due, and I only work 12 hours and I’m going insane NOW?!!! I know that I should just take one step at a time instead of looking at the whole but I don’t like details even though they are necessary. I like bigger, better, now… sounds so Human so American. Then that gets me to the point of yes we are human, having a human experience so why can’t we occasionally think and act human? I dunno everything just seems to be floating in a spear of chaos, or its just the thought bubble of worry I surround myself with. Yes. Wow that’s a whole lotta typing and it clears my mind and now I’m actually kinda sleepy but not ready yet.
These are the things I wish
I wish I could talk more with Amber and Kristine since I thought I told the whole world about me graduating in December but they first found out this week, and Amber who is spazing out as much as me never even heard me mention Derek. Such a crazy week it has been, moved so slow initially now feeling crammed for time.
I wish I could relax/forget/ just be. have a day for me of course a massage would be nice
I wish I wasn’t so timid around Derek and that I was 10 times more open with him( not having the retaining wall still built) and actually that’s true with everyone
I wish I could cry sincerely in front of someone to let them see at my lowest/weakest moment.
I wish I got out more besides going to work and school, that goes back to being more extroverted
I really wish I could spell better so I don’t seem so young/inexperienced/ stupid..
I want to be more confident
I don’t want to be broke but I also don’t want to burn myself out from working too much,

Perhaps I just need to define what I mean by balance. Who knows.

So i didn't win a new phone, kinda disapointing but alls well. It actually sounds like my parents might be willing to buy me a new phone which would be FUCKING AWESOME, and then i could really get the one i want. Just gonna do a quick update since i need to meet my group at the library. oh yippy and then i get to go to my weekend class icky. But i will survive, thats about all, when i was visiting this site i typed in licejournal... now thats freaky weird disturbing.

So you know where you have those conversations where you can’t stop thinking about what the other person said. Leaving all these thoughts of hate and dread in you head. Unable to forgive and unable to forget, finding out it’s really yourself that you can’t forgive. Can’t learn to love or accept. I think I found out my greatest fear, and its myself. Ashamed of my faults, that I’m not good enough, of this and that and more nonsense. I don’t like being left venerable, letting someone see through me. I wanna hide myself pretend like the bad shit I’ve done never happened, but it has. Always trying to hide the truth, avoiding responsibility, lying, countless others. I just can’t stop thinking and all I want to do is cry, but you can’t hide the truth no matter how hard you try.